really?

what a fucking mess.

i dont like it when people heap their expectations on me nor do i tolerate rude tones, words or manners. is it a wonder i got mad?

and my temper is getting shorter.

when i was younger, i like to expect a lot from my friends. they cannot do that, they should do that, they have to know that, etcetc. yeah, i was a really unreasonable person, not to mention, petty, selfish, and unappreciative. nowadays, i hope im not like that anymore. . . well except the sometimes petty and unappreciative fits i tend to get into. i have come to realise that i have no right to expect them to be what i want instead of who they really are. wow, maturity.

urghh, but the problem here is she completely got it all wrong. if my intentions were so clear, how come i dont see it? because that was never my intention in the first place. talk about being friends who will never get suspicious of any hidden intentions the others harbour.

and i found out person Y has been lying to me. not exactly lying, maybe withholding information? but seriously, how can you be so nice to gift me expensive gifts, treat me breakfast, lunch and dinner but cause L so much grief? anyway, i should not place any judgement on Y. dilemma: who to trust?

i realise there are a lot more lines on my palms then in the past. the more lines you have, the more complicated your life are. i hate my palm lines. i believe it is the cause of my really complicated predicaments i have been landing myself into since last year.