Life

I really ended up sulking at the corner for the whole night but its over my insomnia.
feel so mentally tired this morning when i woke up from my 1hr sleep. and my face aches because i was yawning once every minute while i was preparing for school. my vision blurs. my head pounds. my stomach in knots. so i ended up thinking f. this and went back to sleep =.=

after my promos, im going to do the brain scan. been thinking of doing the x-ray since march but the doctor said that it will kill my brain cells so he did not want me to do it. but i think doing it will provide me with some relief you know? if my brain is alright, then i can stop imagining the horror of getting brain cancer/tumour/some other shit and know that its JUST stress. if its not, then i have finally found the cause. but of course, i hope its ok =x brain, please be good and normal. pray*

ok, im going to prepare tons of questions to bug my teachers. it doesnt matter if they are not free to answer. i just want to show them im working hard you know? so at the end of the year, they will say to the dont-know-who that im working hard and then i can get retained :) hehe, the dont-know-who tells me one.

courage is doing things that you fear to do. im afraid of my school. that's why i dont like it. and dont ask me why. because i dont know why. i wont understand my own feeling unless i keep pouring myself over the situation. and i just realise recently that im afraid of my school.

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im hungry but my stomach are in knots. im ravenous but at the same time, nauseous. ):