choice?

when i have the urge to blog, i have a lot of things to blog about >.<
anyway, CC posted this on her blog,

"But junior high school is compulsory."

"That's for other people to worry about, not you. It's not compulsory to go someplace where you're miserable. Not at all. You have rights too, you know."

---Haruki Murakami, "Dance Dance Dance"

and its just so SPEAK TO ME!
Taurus people absolutely refuses to do things that they do not want to do. so sometimes, other people think that they are being antisocial and difficult when they refuses to participate in something. but, its just in my nature, you know? you only live life once. so why not do things your own way to your heart's desire instead of following the crowd? in case of misunderstanding, i have nothing against following the crowd because most of the time im like "anything la, this or that? doesnt matter. no problem." but JC? damnDamnDAMN hate it man. i know that JC is the straightest (hence shortest) path to success provided you do well. (poly too la, but three years is =.=.) and i do want to succeed. i have my dream to be fulfilled. i have my ferrets waiting to be cuddled. but why must the society have to deem a piece of paper and a bunch of alphabets so important that without it, sorry, please go the hard way. goodbye. its like ????!!!! and all the knowledge gained in pri, sec, jc are all meaningless in the future. so, because of society, im spending 12 years of my life learning something worthless (except for languages, math and econs) just so i can gain acceptance into a university which is the gate to my dream job. i understand that such system is necessary. but it just irks me to no end that im wasting so much time, feeling so much stress (ok la, not stressed out la), and basically the effort put in to memorise meaningless information.
ok, im out of point here. the point is i hate that im a coward. i hate that i do not have the courage to quit school RIGHT NOW simply because im scared of the future, scared that i will regret when im old and penniless that such situation occur simply because i was too immature to endure. but at the same time, im scared that such situation will occur anyway because im just too miserable to get the energy and motivation to study for my promos.

Schools today are teaching useless things. That's why students don't like to study. - Eikichi Onizuka.